mood: | Vote @ Bac | Wishlist | [1.21.2002] Holy horse shit, I just fucked up the other version of my site... but I can fix it. I was switching over to postnuke and it got fucked. I'll have it fixed tomorrow. I got fired from my job, that's about all that's new. I'll tell you more later! It wasn't my fault that I got fired. If anyone has the reason I got fired (my last post) in their cache, please send it to me so I can post it! Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 6:42 PM -------------------------- [11.30.2001] Are you people still coming here? You should never bookmark anything on someone's site, except for the index page, cause people change it around all the time. (like I have) I am using a really cool new script to run my site, and you should go back to my index page (fuh-q.com) and click the entrance to get to it. If you're too lazy to do that, then go here for the new version of this page. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 4:41 PM -------------------------- [11.28.2001] Not much happened last night, and I assume that not much is going to happen today either. I'm waiting till tomorrow to go find a job, since I have to go get my last check anyway, and I don't need to waste gas making 2 trips in 2 days. A lot of time just passed since I started working on getting the new version of my site done, which I think I might have it up here in a little bit. I can't believe that it's been 3 hours since I woke up, it don't seem like that long at all. Time flies when there's shit that you want to do, I suppose. I need to get some chow soon, that's about all I know. Anyway, I guess I'll get out of here for now. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 3:06 PM -------------------------- [11.27.2001] Fuckin shit, this is going to be a hella bad and boring week, I can see that now. I called a lawyer, and he don't think that I have a case- but I think he's full of shit and I need to get another opinion. I didn't like his fucking attitude anyway, the fuckin twink. I'm just in one of those moods, I suppose. I've been working on the new layout format with php some more today. I don't have too much more today, and I could probably get it done in an hour if I felt like it. Yeah... if I felt like it. I'll probably have it done by tomorrow. I just have a few more graphics to do and a little bit more html to get done, and that's about it. Even if I don't get it all done, I might get what I have done so far up, and then get the rest of it done as people are registering and getting familiar with the site. Yes, it will be free to register and be able to post things with your own name. You can still post comments and stuff in the forum without registering, but I bet that people will abuse that, so it won't last long. It won't take over 3 minutes to register, so everyone should do it. Also, I am still looking for more writers to join me at the new version of the site. My buddy Don sent me windows xp, and I'm using it now. Don is also part of this group that I host. Go visit his sites and show him some sexy love if you get the time. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 4:38 PM -------------------------- [11.26.2001]
It's cool, I didn't really like the job all that much. I liked the place I was working, although I didn't like the hours very much and I didn't like how fucking disorganized Pinkerton-Burns is. I can't believe those fuck heads fired me, they must be out of their fucking minds or something. I have a headache from not having enough caffine, so I had to run up the street to get a bottle of pop. Well, I guess I'm just going to chill for the rest of the evening and try to find a job. Well, at least I have more time to update my page now. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 6:08 PM --------------------------
You aren't going to believe this shit... really. I got back from vacation late last night and I just called work about getting my schedule cleared up since it's a little bit fucked up, and work told me that I was fired! Ok, I talked to the main man, which I never talk to. I usually talk to my immediate supervisor (Mike), but I just talked to his supervisor (Ron). Ron said that since I refused to work on thanksgiving, that I was fired, cause as part of my probation, I can't refuse to work. However, I just told Ron that I told Mike a week ago that I wasn't going to work on Thanksgiving and around that time because I had to take a trip somewhere. Mike said alright and never said anything about the fact that I would get fired. Soooo, Ron told me to call back at 4 and that he would talk to Mike by then, who wasn't in the office yet because he was having car problems. Basically, I think that I'll be getting my job back and still working tonight, since otherwise I could sue them for wrongful termination. Ron said that Mike must not have known that rule, that's why he didn't tell me, but that he would talk to him and that I can reverse this perhaps. Psssh, they better think before they fuck with me, cause I know that I can sue on this one. Mike should have damn well known the facts on this one, especially when I told him a week in advance that I was going to miss those 2 days of work. When Ron told me I was fired, I was like "say what?!", since I went into my famous "Oh Hell naw" mode. I know I'll get the job back, so I'm not even too excited about it. It would be more exciting if I didn't get it back, then I could get a good lawyer and win. However, I think that Mike is going to get in trouble for this one and that I'm going to get the job back, cause Ron didn't know that Mike didn't tell me that I couldn't refuse to work. They couldn't possibly be so stupid as to fire me after he learned that I had no idea of that one. Anyway, I guess I'm going to take my books back to the library, pay the late fee, and then go get some groceries. Basically just another day, only there's a different kind of drama, since we all know that there's always some kinda of drama going on around me. I'm still working on getting the new version of this site all fixed up, and I think that I'm going to take my time on it, since I really like how the page looks right now. I have plenty of time to get things figured out and perfect. Since I haven't looked at it for like 5 days, it's going to take me a little while to get back to where I was. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 3:50 PM -------------------------- [11.21.2001] I just wanted to drop in to tell everyone that I'll be going on vacation from later tonight until Monday. Sooo, I'll be back on monday, bloggin it up as usual. Also, I've been working on the php script called Myphpnuke, so I'll have this site up and running under it probably by the middle of next week. It has everything on it, it's basically a site in a box. I really can't wait to get it installed and have a membership type site here where I'm going to hire other writers to write for me. I'll still be having my daily updates on what's going on in my life, and the other sections that you see to the right, but I'm going to be adding more writing and more content for everyone to enjoy. You have no idea how excited I am about all of this. I hope that everyone out there has a safe and happy thanksgiving. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 5:18 PM -------------------------- [11.20.2001] Yes, I know that I haven't written for a while. I've been sooooo ultra busy with the new post that I'm on with my job. I'm working from 11pm to 7am, so I'm either at work or trying to get some sleep at some point. I don't work tonight, but I haven't slept yet, so basically I'll be on sometime tomorrow morning. I haven't forgot about working on this site, and I haven't been ignoring anyone's emails. I've just been pretty busy trying to get everything done and trying to get some sleep. I have lots to talk about, so don't think that I have nothing to say, cause that's never the case. I'm working on some php right now, so maybe I can have something really cool up soon. Lots of talking and updating tomorrow. = ) Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 11:44 AM -------------------------- [11.15.2001] I have so much that I wanted to type out here, but I really hate to take all the time to do it. Well, I guess I could get some of it down on here, at least. Anyway, I was thinking so much last night when I was trying to sleep, that it took me hours to get to sleep. I was thinking about everything that I've done in my past and how I would change at least 500 things. There's so many illegal things that I did from age 12 to now that I wouldn't change, but there's some things that I would, which I don't want to mention. I'd probably be more friendly to people in real life, as I think that might have been part of my problem growing up from kindergarten and up. I have the feeling that people wouldn't have liked me anyway, since I used to be an ugly ducking. I remember when I used to think that New kids on the block was the best group ever when I was 12, and Jonathan (the one with severe anxiety and mental problems now) was my favorite. I have all their tapes (back when there only was tapes), all their merchandise, and loads of other shit that I must have wasted hundreds of dollars on. I remember when I loved the movie Dirty Dancing so much and I thought that Patrick Swayze (as Johnny Castle) was the hottest man on earth, and he was the first man over 17 that I actually thought was hot. I thought that Jennifer Grey was the luckiest woman on earth to dance with him and press her boobs against him, lol. I wouldn't be the strong person that I am today if everything would have been different, but maybe I would have been a happy person, you know? The only thing that I'm happy about right now is the fact that I'm tough. That's not too comforting to know that no matter what shit happens, I can handle it. That implies that I know there's going to be tons of stupid and bad shit that I'm going to have to be dealing with, as usual. There always has been, and I believe that there always will be. I think that I've made the wrong decisions for the past few years and have set myself into a pattern of wrong choices that it is going to take me years from now to get out of. I think it;s basically fate that it'll be a few years before I start doing the right thing again. I shouldn't have ever quit college. There's lots of things that I shouldn't have done, too many to even try to list on here, as if I would even want to. I feel like I'm in a midlife crisis or something, what all these "what if's" and "I wish I wouldn't have's". I've been feeling that way for quite some time, since I still don't know what I want to do with my life at age 24. Maybe I should go to college? I really want y'alls opinion on that one, should I go to college or not? If I went, I would probably have to go to be a social worker or something that has to do with computers. I'm not quite sure on that one yet, but I'll figure it out whenever I figure out if I'm even going to go back or not. I feel like I'd be one of the oldest ones there if I went to college now, not to mention the whole feeling of being in high school again, which was pure terror. Yes, I was treated that badly in high school and it has fucked me up pretty bad. Y'all can't even possibly even begin to understand how mean those people were to me. I hope they all get married and have 5 million kids and live on welfare for the way they treated me, bwahaha. So going back to college would equal preppies, cliques, assholes, jocks, and potheads to me. The same bunch of no brained ewe's that were there whenever I went to a college in the first place. I have a problem with people... stupid people, which is most people- and that's my problem. My grandmother says I need medication for my anger and for all that shit, but I say fuck that shit. I can handle things without meds, cause I'm strong like that. Yeah, I'm quite a bit angry and I get pissed off easy, but I'm still able to deal with it by channeling it, you know? As for today, I'm going to go gambling again, since I need $60 to pay for my domain soon, $9 for a new lipstick since all mine got all fucked up over the summer and melted, $10 for a cheap watch so I know what time it is when I'm gambling since I lose track of time when I'm there, and maybe $15 for a new pair of sunglasses since mine are fucked up. It's fun to gamble to get money, it relaxes you, you do a little drinking, and you have some fun. I need a no stress environment to make up for the past few years of hell. Shit, more than the past few years, more like the past decade. Come to think about it, I've been getting flack and abuse from people since kindergarten, ugh. I don't know how I manage to put up with so much shit without going psycho and killing everyone. Got to get ready to go now... this was a post of epic status. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 10:11 AM -------------------------- [11.14.2001] I seem to be forgetting more things each and every day. I forgot to do 1 thing the day before yesterday, forgot to do two things yesterday, and it I don't hurry up and do it- I'm going to forget to do three things today. Yeah, I guess I just sit here and get so into the internet, that I forget to do the things that I've been meaning to do. Hell, I was going to do this post yesterday, but I forgot. I don't know why I'm so forgetful, it really bothers me. I think it's the stress of not knowing what I'm doing with my life, and not knowing who I can turn to and who I can't turn to. = / There's a lot of treachery going on, seems like everywhere I look. (not online though) Anyway, I need to get all that shit done, but I'll leave you with Rhiannon's impersonation of me that she had to do for Survivorcam, it's so cute! I think she imitated me right on the money.
Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 2:36 PM -------------------------- [11.13.2001] Wow, this thing really works! I suggest that you go get yourself evaluated, cause this will help you see things the way they are. I'm going to go read over mine again. Thanks to Jai for the link. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 9:12 PM --------------------------
I hope everyone is enjoying this new layout, I really like it. I love putting colors together and finding a font that perfectly matches what I'm trying to do. The fonts name that you see above is "sandoval", and I got it at "Who Fonted?", my favorite font site. This layout was actually fun to put together, unlike some of the others ones that I've done that seemed more like a chore. In my opinion, this layout is even better than the last one, and I think that it's easier on the eyes. I think I forgot to tell you that I reformatted my computer, huh? Yes, it was really fucking up, so I had to put it in check. Everything seems to be working now, at least internet explorer somewhat works now, lol. It wasn't working at all before, but now it just freezes up sometimes. I need to download the ie6 update, since I'm using ie5, which came with the version of windows 2000 that I happen to have. My yahoo messenger works really well again, so I'm on it all the time now, since it shows my online presence in the cgi script above at the top of this table. I was kinda slacking at playing Neopets, but I think I'm going to be playing it a little bit more now. I would go into detail about why I'm going to start playing it more, but most likely, y'all don't even give a shit about neopets. All I know is that I'm bored and I need something to do that's interesting. What I really need to do is go get something to eat, for real. Yeah, I think I'll get dressed and perhaps drive downtown to get something to eat here in a few minutes. After that, I'll probably play some games over at Yahoo, and then maybe see what Gamesville is all about. I played there eaons ago, whenever lycos didn't own it yet, but now it looks kinda junky. Eh, maybe I'll write more later on. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 3:41 PM -------------------------- [11.12.2001] This is going to be one of those days when it takes me all day to wake up, I can just see it now. I need to call to work and see if they're about ready to start moving me to another job location, and I have to figure out what I want to eat. I woke up a little while ago, but I've been reading cheats for Black & White, and I've been talking to Renee on aim, and catching up on my fave internet tabloid. I reformatted my computer last night, so now it works perfect, finally. It was so fucked up that internet explorer and outlook wasn't even working right. I'm going to make a new layout very very very soon, and it's going to probably be a parody layout. It's something that I've been thinking about for a week and a half, and I think that I'm going to go with it. I went gambling this weekend, and did rather well... ending up being even with where I was before I started gambling like 2 weeks ago, lol. It was funny, cause I did so well that it got me back to being even with what I lost. I was so busy this weekend that I didn't really have time to get online and say anything, unfortunately. I had lots of fun being out and about, so that's all that matters. I guess I'm just going to hang around the house today, make a new layout, and play my game. Not much else to do, though I am dreading calling my job place. I need to find a better job, but that's so hard to do around here, especially with the economy being what it is now. Eh well, I'm outta here for now. I leave you with a new picture: Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 3:22 PM -------------------------- [11.09.2001]
She's baaaaaaaaaaaaack... like I said. I've been really busy doing shit outside out the internet the past couple of days, and today too, so I won't be online much until maybe sometime tomorrow. I'm out having fun, or at least trying to. Like I said before, Nay needs to be smacked for the publicity stunt... I got nothing against her, though. Bwaahaha. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 1:57 PM -------------------------- [11.06.2001]
I found some decent places to go today, so I decided to plug them. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 4:47 PM --------------------------
Here is an official warning to my hostees who don't update their pages anymore. I am going to delete your pages if y'all don't post something by tomorrow. I love y'all, but you asked for space and promised to keep updating, and you aren't doing it. I could be giving more space to my other hostees or getting a new one, since y'all aren't using the space anymore. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 3:29 PM --------------------------
President bush says that Bin Laden is trying to get some nuclear weapons. Isn't that just fucking great? Those pussies can't stick to good ol manpower war, they have to go for the big bombs. I guess they're just trying to knock everyone off the face of the earth. If I could find Bin Laden, I would kick the shit out of him, for real. I don't care how old he is, he isn't too old to take an ass whoopin. And you know he can't fight, either... I just know it. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with people nowadays, I really don't. And the worst is people in this country that continuously fight, like the Bloods and Crips, and the people over in the comments section over at Internet Gossip. Can't you see we got a war going on here? Can't we all just get along? As for me, I didn't go anywhere yesterday, since I let a friend borrow my car while theirs was in the shop. I'm resting today, since I got up so early and stayed up, since we had to take my friends car in so early. I think that I'll do a little bit of gambling tomorrow, since I need to get $100 to get an official copy of windows xp and I want to buy an awesome game called Majestic. I need to practice my blackjack skills on Yahoo today, in order to prepare for it. Ryan deserves a front page plug. Dammit Ryan, I miss talking to you, I need to add you to my aim again. I also miss CherryBomb that used to write for you, she was the shit... does she have a site now? In other news, Nay is thinking about coming back online, but not as a "camwhore". Don't that just figure? Well, I need to get my food on, but I might have something to say later on. Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 1:48 PM -------------------------- [11.05.2001] Well, well, well, isn't this so whorish? That bitch has a cock gallery, and idiots actually send their pics in. Bitches like that give us good females a bad name. Did I mention that she's a camgirl? Oh, but y'all could have guessed that. Moving on, Jai and Nay closed their sites down. Why do people that get tons of hits and tons of shit off of their wishlist close their sites down? Duh, hello... "I can't take the pressure" isn't going to cut it anymore. (I don't mean that about Jai, just Nay and other people) And I swear, I have nothing against Nay, but if she brings her site back- she needs to be smacked for doing a stupid publicity stunt. More later... Unknown posted this fucked up thought @ 12:38 PM --------------------------
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